Hi all. I pretty much do this every few months...I get all gung-ho, blog about my dieting, my exercise, then i don't blog for a while because I am not dieting anymore. Part of my problem is binge eating...there I said it. It isn't all the time, and it comes in spurts. I am trying to get it under control though, and am slowly but surely doing that I believe. In any case, I found out today that my lower back will be messed up the rest of my life...and the only way I can ease some of the pain is to shed the extra weight. So, because I don't want to be on pills, and I want my back to stop hurting so bad, I am going to be strict, I am going to exercise even though it hurts, and I am going to feel better. I am already going out to dinner tomorrow and saturday night, and i don't know where but will do my best to make the best decision on the menu. Below is a picture of my breakfast, lunch and snacks for tomorrow. I left the 4 bottles of water out because those are at work. I am having :Women's Nutrition instant oatmeal for breakfast, mandarin oranges as snacks...I have 4 because they are only like 36 calories a piece...a banana as a snack, a turkey and provolone sandwich with light mayo on whole wheat bread, and a container of low fat cottage cheese (with probiotic fiber whatever that is) oh, and a diet jones cream soda.
I am sad, and depressed right now. I must come to terms with the fact that regardless of what I do, I will have to deal with back pain the rest of my life. Skinny or fat, there are things wrong with my back. I am seeing nothing right now than a fat old person who sits around thinking about what she wishes she could do in my future, and although I know that is dramatic, what can I say? I am going to walk for 35 minutes tomorrow night, even though walking hurts...usually my back isn't this bad, but for the next week I am on strong NSAIDs and muscle relaxers to ease the pain...usually i have mild pain but recently it has become severe. After 2.5 weeks of dealing with it, I know for sure what is wrong. IT could be worse, I could have an incurable disease or be really sick, and I know that. But right now, I just feel so blah. So anyways. Here is my food intake until 6 PM tomorrow. When I am hungry I will chug water.
Wish me luck! and let me know how all of you are doing too! old friends who I haven't spoken to in a while, and new friend I have yet to meet!