Driving me Crazy
I come from a traditional family where women get married before 25. I am 28 and just broke off a promissing engagement. everyone used to think I'll live happily ever after. I am my mom's only child and her one and only dream for me is to have a husband and childeren.She used to even cry for my being single before I met my ex fiance, and I was only 25 back then!All she can talk about right now is how I'm going to be unhappy and miserable for the rest of my life.I should mention that she is having a health problem, the kind that must be attended by a relative always. it is kind of a mental- health problem where she get fobiac at nights and passes out or her blood pressure races really high. I can't trust her with a nurse and her health advisors think that she is best and more comfortable with me. AND I AM NOT GOING TO DENY THE WOMAN WHO RAISED ME AND GAVE ME LOVE THE CARE SHE NEEDS JUST BECAUSE SHE NAGGS TO ME!another problem, I am a self employer. i.e: I work at home. I have tried to work in different places but I can't afford to rent a studio or have my own place. so I am home every hour every day and it does not help with my mom's constant nagging!I am really, really tired. now that she knows I suffer from the break up she has tuned down the nagging, but still, she says what she has to say! If it were up to me, I would stay single for a LONG, LONG time. but this is driving me nuts. and I do feel sorry for her. I don't want her to be deprived from her one and only wish. she says I always fear for you, fear that I die and you stay alone and single! and no matter how much I reason her, tell her that I am happy and content and I have so many friends, it does not work with her. she says having a husband is much different than having a friend or career!Obviously I cannot change her whole perspective and idea. she has lived with it for almost 50 years. and I just hate to fail again. I hate to meet the wrong man and fail in being truly happy just because I have to be with someone. I want to remove this high pressure, this stress, that it is getting late. Sometimes I wish I lived alone and really did not have parents and could be as I want, a free person...I love my mom, but she is driving me crazy.