Group Therapy: I Don't Want a "Real" Job Anymore
I've been out of college for four years. I have a bachelor's degree in marketing, and have been employed at a well-known advertising firm ever since I graduated. I have an amazing salary, great benefits, and a prestigious job title, but the problem is I'm not happy with what I'm doing. I feel this job is sucking the life out of me. I work approximately 50 hours a week, and I have no time to enjoy life itself. I very rarely have a chance to experience sunlight, and I spend the majority of my waking hours staring at a computer screen. I feel that I have landed in a career that is entirely unsuitable for me.
I am an extremely creative-minded person, and I'm happiest when I'm writing and singing. I play the guitar and spent the majority of my free time in college doing open mic nights and jamming with friends, and I've become increasingly nostalgic for those days. I spend my entire day in the office dreaming about playing music, but by the time I get home, I'm too exhausted to do it! Every night I end up laying on the couch watching bad television. I don't have a boyfriend, and I very rarely have the energy to go out with my friends. I feel like I've become a ball of depression. I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I'm going to do to climb out of this fog I'm in, and the only thing I can seem to come up with is leaving my job. The problem is, I don't want another office job. My parents paid for me to go to college for four years, so I don't think they're going to be supportive of me quitting to "find myself." Also, with the economy the way it is right now, I feel kind of guilty for wanting to leave my well-paying job. I also feel like I'll be looked upon negatively by my college friends who all have high-powered jobs and are currently working their way up the corporate ladder. Is my head in the clouds, or should I try to fulfill my dreams?