Lesbian Dilema


I came out to some of my friends but no family last year. I know that I am a lesbian but I can't accept myself. I see two girls together and I catch myself thinking its wrong.  How can I still have these feelings about who I truly am?  Do they ever go away? I never thought that I would still be having these feelings after I came out to my friends.  I see two girls holding hands in public and I feel its wrong. I know its not wrong but it is my first feeling.  Is that from years of my family telling me it was wrong? I'm not that young.  As a mater of fact I came out in my late 30's.  Its so hard to make this change and see the disappointment in others eyes.  Help!Spoiled

CaraCaelan CaraCaelan
Do you feel like it's wrong because you like it or because they are women? I used to feel a little of both, I used to ignore my feelings, I avoided any situation that involved someone I could be attracted to. I am a Christian and that is still an issue for me. But, it did not go away for me, it made me someone I did not want to be. Now I realise that our parents teach us the path of least resistance because they love us and want to protect us. Also consider that it is as hard for a parent as it is for us. Having a child that does not fit the social mould is still considered a parental failure unfortunately. They are as scared of us being different as we are.