lonely&lost


I am new to the group and am looking for comfort. I am 20 years old and have been married for a year next month...But I am not exactly Happy. I know I would be happier with another woman. I've thought about being with another woman since I was a young teenager but I never acted on my feelings for feel that I would be dejected by my family. I do not know what to do and the only person I have to talk to is my best friend who is a woman that I love. Can anyone give me some support.

jessicarackley jessicarackley 1 year 2 weeks
im always here if u wanna talk ?
katy2202 katy2202 1 year 32 weeks
I have only recently come out myself, but I would also agree in not pursuing any of your feelings with your best friend. I would, however, open up with your spouse because in many respects it is unfair to not only yourself, but to him as well that you think you would rather be with a woman.
Sheikb24 Sheikb24 1 year 35 weeks
That is a hard situation to deal with I know you must be totally distraught by the feeling you are having. While I never had the tenacity to stay in a relationship with a man long enough to get married I know that trapped feeling of being in a relationship with someone you know isn't right for you. I have always loved women but would never allow myself to even acknowledge the feelings and thought it perfectly normal when I got incredibly attached and possessive of some of my girlfriends (just friends). I feel the same way about coming out as you do and do not know if I'll ever be in a place where I could tell my family, but now that I am accepting me for what I am I feel better about life in general and have hope that one day I can be happy. When you force yourself into a slot that doesn't fit right it will only breed more and more unhappiness. The friend crush thing is not something I would suggest pursuing as it will likely only lead to more hurt and losing a good friend.